Have you ever had the feeling that nothing is worthwhile, that your life is pointless and you have no where to go? I am here to tell you that Satan is very much alive and that he will do everything he can to get you to stray.
About a week ago I was struggling a lot with the idea of leaving on a mission. I kept thinking, "how on earth can I teach people the gospel? I don't even know it" and "I can't leave my family" and "I'm not spiritually strong enough to serve a mission". It took me all week to figure out that it was Satan trying to get me to refuse my call. He knows not only what I can do for the people in Santa Rosa, but also how this mission will change me into the person God wants me to be and how I will influence generations to come for good. Satan does not want this to happen.
He thought he had me. For a while I was straying off the path and I did not want to come back. Little by little he left me, until I was utterly alone. I didn't know where to turn, what to do, how to change. I found hope in the Atonement of Jesus Christ.
Christ will never leave us alone. In the story of the man walking with the Savior on a shore, he looks behind him and could see his set of footprints alongside the Savoir's. But there were places where there were only one set of foot prints. He recognized those places as the hard times in his life, he asked the lord, "Lord, why did you leave me then? Those were the times I needed you most!" The Savior looked at him and gently said, "Oh my son, it was then that I carried you."
If we rely on Christ he will carry us through the storms, our trials and tribulations. The atonement is there for our use. If you feel like you have no where to turn, turn to the Savior. He is always there. I just need to make it til May 15th. May the Lord guide me through the temptations of the Devil and may I always remember to doubt not my first impression to serve a mission and fear not, that everything will work out in the end. Amen.
